I started to dwell on this thought when I had graduated almost 4 years ago with a sense of astonishment that how swiftly those strenuous five years ended, well in retrospect when I think about it, I believe, it doesn’t really matter, what is really important is who you are now and how you feel about yourself at this moment. If one can only understand this thought.
Life is a measure of experiences and all the moments that one has been through and what that all made you into and will keep on affecting everyone every moment of their lives, and the only point I want to make here is everyone gets evolved, nothing remains stagnant, and change is the rule of this life.
About 10 years ago I had wished to become a damn good surgeon like one of the best in the world but now after I had experienced so much in my life I think and function differently what should I call upon this capricious attitude of mine that am I a loser or that I got afraid of the hard work which is required to pursue this career or I am not being accountable to the amount which had been spent on me when my parents could not even meet the expense of and they had to borrow it from someone to fulfill my dream and desire and now I am just being ungrateful enough to not make it happen?.
On the contrary, I inspired to become world’s greatest surgeon only: which are anyway so many already in this world and there will be countless other graduates having the same dream, but during this life changing experience I happen to realize it the hard way that what is my purpose of having the privilege to study about this magnificent creation of God which is interestingly this body which we are blessed with? Just to cram those oh so amazing names of all those ginormous and small arteries, veins and nerves or learning the art of cutting resectioning and suturing, or anesthetizing a patient or reviving them while so many of them are already doing it and so diligently.
What kept me motivated after being a part of all the vigorous countless hours of work shifts and becoming that person who can only blurt words out of the medical books and jargons and nothing beyond certain set principles, was rather that feeling of being unable to raise a question about anything beyond written facts? What intrigued me was wanting to find out about the back story of a person who has gotten affected by the disease just cause of lack of awareness in my own way rather than the classic practice of history taking but I always used to get bashed for not going by the rule book or to find out about all those who are oh so equipped with all the wealth, knowledge and have been so occupied all their lives and have travelled the entire world but could hardly get aware of themselves and not realizing the fact that we all are mortal until and unless we or our loved ones get diagnosed with something tragic?.
I felt claustrophobic. In today’s day and age we talk about artificial intelligence, in surgical approach we have all advanced to laparoscopic surgeries and robotics but what about our minds ? What are we running after? What are we accumulating and for whom? Oh for your family guess what we all will die one day, but how are we living in these mediocre mind sets like: ‘earning for living’, ‘I earn so that I can travel around the world, have a nice car and a house’, ‘I work for money’ ‘ I work cause that’s what we are suppose to do’ ?.
It has become a set pattern I feel: Get married, produce children, educate them (if one can manage to afford it oh but yes we have always got the support or trap of student loans) then help them choose a defined career path so that they can support themselves and the family and when the ‘appropriate time has arrived or certain pre decided age has been reached’ get them married and hence this ‘reproductive cycle’ if I may call it so, continues.
Although there has been an applaud-able improvement which has become prevalent in our modern society which I am oh so grateful for where people have negate the rules and gotten out of such foolish and questionable society prejudices and have taken their stands and now managing to spend their lives on their terms, thanks to the mass media and various social media platforms that awareness of almost everything and anything is available on literally by undetectable movements of the fingers of hand like you don’t even have to move your body to look around you but what we sadly could not achieve is awareness of this being, yes I am pointing to ourselves.
Where have our aspirations gone? Why cannot we run after to achieve greatness? Why cannot we help each other to find the ultimate truth or rather help ourselves first? Why everything has become about self and if it is about self than why is there so much vanity and superficial outlook towards life? There are two sayings that I would like to mention here at this point: ‘A physician is not the one who treats just the disease, a great physician is the one who treats the person who has the disease’, and ‘Never go to that doctor whose office plants have died’.
Let’s first work towards redefining our mindsets and realizing our core values, every day and every moment of our lives we have got a chance to think and rethink and act. Someone asked Imam Ali one day that how can he teach the knowledge that he possess to unaware people? Imam Ali replied such that no words should get articulated by your tongue and there should be no need to take the sword out from its scabbard. Your act and your character must speak for itself.
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